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Daniel 6:6-12a
“So the administrators and the satraps went as a group to the king and said: ‘O King Darius, live forever! The royal administrators, prefects, satraps, advisers and governors have all agreed that the king should issue an edict and enforce the decree that anyone who prays to any god or man during the next thirty days, except you, O king, shall be thrown into the lions’ den. Now, O king, issue the decree and put it into writing so that it cannot be altered – in accordance with the laws of the Medes and Persians, which cannot be repealed.’ So Kind Darius put the decree in writing.
Now when Daniel learned that the decree had been published, he went home to his upstairs room where the windows opened toward Jerusalem. Three times a day he got down on his knees and prayed, giving thanks to his God, just as he had done before. Then these men went as a group and found Daniel praying and asking God for help. So they went to the king and spoke to him about his royal decree: ‘Did you not publish a decree that during the next thirty days anyone who prays to any god or man except to you, O king, would be thrown into the lions’ den?’
The king answered, ‘The decree stands-…’ ”
Now – we all know what happened to Daniel and how God prevailed in what looked like an impossible situation. Daniel lived and the King believed in the one and only TRUE God! Our God! The King proclaimed later on the chapter that God was the living God and the He would endure forever, that His kingdom would not be destroyed and His dominion will never end.
That’s a pretty fast and big change of heart, for someone who wanted everyone to bow down to himself…
I was getting ready to head to the bush for a few days. It was the first time I had been back to the bush since vacation and that meant that it had been over a month. Because once I got back from Italy, K was sick and that took about two weeks to get everything taken care of with him. Then I headed back to Niamey for a Fulani Team meeting and this was my first opportunity to get back to my bush family.
I had packed my things the night before so I could leave in the next morning and it would be cooler than going in mid – afternoon. I had a strange feeling wash over me as I locked the door of my house and knew that it would be a few days before I was back again. “Oh, well.” I told myself. “I love it in the bush and I miss them out there.” I wasn’t sure what the feeling was or where it came from so I quickly pushed it aside.
I made my way to the road where there was a bush taxi ready to leave shortly. This was a van that was supposed to hold 15 people. ***Ok – this is not the same size as a 15 passenger van in America. It’s about the size of a mini – van with an extra seat in it. And they have little fold down seats next to the windows (those are the most uncomfortable)***They put me in the second row in between a guy about my age and an older lady. There were five men in the seat behind me and four men and a lady in front of me. Just before we took off a lady with her two daughters crammed into my seat right next to me. There were three people in the front seat and we were all officially squished. There were now 19 people crammed in the van and I can assure you that if someone else needed a lift we would have made room.
The lady to my right sent her older daughter to the seat in the front with the other lady and bared her breasts and began nursing her younger daughter. The men in the back were having a discussion about something in Hausa and I tried to tune them out at the same time I tried to keep my arm from rubbing the guy’s next to me. Surprisingly he crossed his arms and leaned close to the window away from me. I was thankful for that. I folded my arms on top of my backpack that was in my lap and put my forehead on my arms.
I began praying for my time in the village and that the Lord would give me good opportunities to reveal Him to those I would be with.
Once I got to my stop I got out and made the walk through the sandy road. Although it was only about 11am the sun was beating down on me and it was well over 110 degrees. I love the walk to the village from the road, especially if I’m alone. I think it’s beautiful and it allows me the little bit of extra time to talk to the Lord on the villager’s behalf before I get there.
As I walked into the compound I could see the girls and Dez all sitting on a couple of mats and they were ecstatic to see me! I passed out the homemade cookies that I brought for them. I made sure that I put one in for each person. Well, they began breaking them into pieces and passing them out and I wondered why. So when I asked they showed me that they had saved two cookies for the chief instead of just one! I got a good laugh out of that and made a note to myself to remember that for next time. They were all thrilled with the cookies (that were made with the chocolate chips given to me from Mrs. Graham’s Sunday School class at my home church – thanks!) and they made sure they told me “I was able to cook”. “A wawi, Hawa, A wawi” “You are able, Hawa, you are able.” It’s the small things that make a difference. I may not be very good at Fulfulde, but I can sure cook! According to them at leastJ
The day passed with little excitement. We went to the well a couple of times and I sat and read my book or my Bible or wrote in my journal. That night we had pounded millet and sauce for dinner. As it got dark we all pulled out our mats and I got my sheets out for my foam mattress. I have a headlamp flashlight that my teammate, Kav, in Nigeria gave me for my birthday. It’s an amazing tool let me tell you. Well *May (11 years old) was sitting with me in the dark and she was coloring but couldn’t easily color while holding a flashlight. So I put on my headlamp and sat and watched her when all the sudden I was swarmed with little tiny bugs in my eyes and up my nose! AHHH – talk about annoying. I quickly turned it off and used the regular flashlight away from my face. I have found that the headlamp is better while moving.
The next day as I was sitting on my mat reading my book “A Voice in The Wind” by Francine Rivers. The cover shows the Christian slave in the story with her hands lifted in praise to God. Surrounding her are lions. She had been sent to the Colosseum when she refused to denounce her faith in Christ.
All the kids like to look at my book covers and know who is who and that sort. They were really confused at the picture of the slave girl. Well, I hadn’t gotten to that part of the story in the book, so I didn’t know how it ended. But they wanted to know the story. So I told them that it was like a story in the Bible that I would tell them instead… I was afraid. I was worried that I would mess something up and get the story wrong and then they would hear a Bible story from me that was completely not correct. As I began telling the story of Daniel, the Lord reminded me that He is faithful. He reminded me that despite my inadequacies He will prevail and use me if I am willing.
The story of Daniel in the lions’ den was the short version, cut in half and divided by three (because of my limited Fulfulde) BUT I TOLD IT! It was my first Bible story that I have been able to tell and I did it in Fulfulde! Praise Him! My fear allowed me to let the Lord take over in a situation that I new I was inadequate for.
The children were amazed that God did that for Daniel and that he lived. After it was all said and done with I wanted to cry from the excitement of having told my first story – “that’s why I’m here!” I told myself, to share the Lord and His faithfulness! I felt victorious, but I knew that it wasn’t I, but the Lord who had been victorious that day, because I had felt like I couldn’t do it and like I said earlier, Daniel trusted and God prevailed… Thanks for your prayers everyone!
So tomorrow starts the Fulani Counsel meeting and I will be staying with all of them. This is another area of inadequacy that I had to give to the Lord. It’s all in Fulfulde and I only know a couple of people that are going to be there. As far as I know I am the only one who can speak English except for my friend Estephan, and he speaks about as much English as I speak Fulfulde. I’m excited about this opportunity to learn and be with so many Fulani Christians I just ask for your prayers that they Lord would help me to understand and be able to communicate effectively.
I will have an update at the end of the week!
Stay tuned!
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Just want you to all know that I haven’t forgotten my blog or my faithful readers! I am having a great time here in Niger and things have been very busy. Not to mention my very limited internet access. So I’m writing up a blog and will get it posted as soon as I get to Niamey next week.
I am headed to Niamey for a Fulani Youth meeting (somehow I got put on the list of officers and I’m not sure how that happened). I will explain more of all that next week.
Thanks for hanging in there with me, I just wanted to let you all know that I’m alive and doing well! Until later – AnnaK
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So, I’m having major difficulties with getting my pictures posted on here. WordPress has changed the way you upload photos and since that has happened I’ve not been able to get them up. The one way that I can think to let you all see my pictures is to place my facebook link in the right column here on my blog. So that’s what I’ve done with my Italy pictures!!!!! I have posted the link to three albums and they are all Italy pictures. All you have to do is clink on the link and it will take you straight there! All together there are 120 pictures… so please take a moment and look at them.
Update on K: After I posted the last blog and ask you all to pray things started getting a tad better. That Monday Susan and I drove him to the hospital in our town where they admitted him and immediately started him on an IV. He was so weak that he couldn’t stand and he wasn’t able to walk by himself. He hadn’t been able to keep any food or drink down and was below 100 pounds. Within the next few days of being in the hospital he regained some of his strength and was able to begin eating. By last Saturday he was ready to come home! I had to leave on Monday morning for Niamey because my team had a team meeting. Monday the hospital began testing him for TB. I’m leaving in the morning to head home from Niamey and as soon as I get there I’m taking K back for a check – up.
He is now walking on his own and keeping all food and drink down! He looks SO much better than he did and I’m very thankful to the Lord that his life was spared, but he still a ways to go before he’s back to 100%.
I haven’t been out to the bush in over a month now because of vacation and then being with K and Fati for the past couple of weeks. So I’m hoping to get out there as soon as I can next week.
Prayer requests:
Safe trip home for Melissa and I as we leave tomorrow
That I will be able to get rested up completely before I head to the bush for a week or so
That the test on K’s TB will be correct (positive or negative) so that we don’t have to do the testing again
I have a silent request at this time that I would appreciate you all lifting up for me, I’m getting down to final details and should be able to share before too long
Thanks for all your love and support! I couldn’t do what I’m doing without you all ![]()
AnnaK
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I am asking that you all join me on my knees and pray for my guard, K. When I got back from Niamey after vacation on Wednesday K was very sick. He is already a very skinny person and I would say that he has probably lost close to 15 – 20 pounds since I left for vacation. He was lying on a mat when I got there and has to have help from someone in order to move or stand/sit up. His strenght is gone.
Please remember that he is a brother in Christ.
Susan took him to the hospital about 45 min from here this morning and I went back to get him. They did an HIV test and that came back negative. They took chest X-Rays today and then I brought him home a few minutes ago and will take him back on Monday to have a TB test done. He will have to stay in the hospital for 3 days to have those results.
Please pray that those involved will cooporate in order to get the test and rehydration done that needs to get done.
Pray that K’s health will be fully restored. (The doctor told me today that if he and the others continue to refuse care for him that he may olny have months if not weeks to live. He was refusing all care until I got there and talked him into it.) Pray that he can keep all fluids down.
Pray for Susan as she is letting us use her vehicle to go to and from the hospital.
Pray for me as I’m staying with Fati and doing the odds and ends “running” and trying to help out in any way that I can.
I will give you all an update as soon as I can. PLEASE PRAY!
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Since last year three of my friends and I have been planning a vacation together in Europe. As the days and weeks went by, it felt like April 11th would never come… and now it’s come and gone…
Mallory had flown in from East Asia, Daniel from Tokyo, Japan, Paul from South Africa and I from Niger. We all met together for the first night in Rome, Italy and had a wonderful dinner of Pizza and Pasta. Boy, was that a treat compared to the food I eat here. Sunday morning was day one and our first official day together again. We headed to St. Peter’s Cathedral where we were able to see a Polish Mass and the Polish Bishop inside the Cathedral. Daniel and I found a confessional and got our picture taken inside. Unbeknown to us – what we did was illegal and a police officer came over to shoe us away! Crazy what American’s can get away with when they’re quick enough… The rest of the day we just hung around Rome and visited, ate a ton of food and talked more than we ever thought we could in one evening. The week was already looking great!
Monday I woke up with a sore throat and still had the cough from the day before but I was determined to not let it slow me down. The weather was cool but nice and there was no rain in sight. We all got up early and headed toward the Roman Ruins and the Colosseum. I was in for a wonderful surprise once we got to the Ruins because I didn’t know that you could go in and walk around! We all bought our tickets and started off in what seemed like a mystery. All the pathways going one way and the other, the staircases that were blocked off and the wonder behind every door that was closed.
Daniel picked Mallory and I flowers and Paul snapped a picture for the three of us. We just continued to walk around and have a good time, enjoying the beauty of what used to be a Palace. Daniel stopped to fill his water bottle at a fountain and Paul, Mallory and I walked on. We all agreed to meet Daniel on the other side of the circle walkway. The three of us walked on to see what else we could find… we found that the walkway didn’t continue like we thought it did. Surely Daniel couldn’t have gone too far. But, how far is too far? Far enough to be out of sight by the time we got to where we thought he might. He was also out of hearing distance… I tried to holler for him and I got no response. So here is Paul, Mallory and I walking all over the ruins trying to find none other than Daniel! We did a documentary of the whole day and it’s quite humorous.
We all decided to leave the ruins and head toward the Colosseum. Maybe he went there to wait for us at the entrance. So we sat down and waited a while. My shoes had rubbed blisters on my feet and they were now open sores so it was good to just sit and rest for a few minutes. After about 20 minutes we headed inside hoping that he would be there somewhere. The Colosseum was amazing. It was so big and wasn’t busy at all. The age of the Colosseum showed in every detail. It was a really neat feeling to be there and see where the Apostle Paul was at one time. Mallory, Paul and I had been there for over an hour and ready to head back. Our plan was to train to Florence that evening where we had reservations to stay in a hostel. We knew that Daniel would meet us back there if we didn’t find him in the ruins on our way back. As the three of us were rounding a corner to go down the stairs and exit the Colosseum, we find Daniel walking up the stairs to tour the Colosseum! FOUND! We got a picture of the four of us while there and headed out.
Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday were spent in Florence. We went to a city called Siena to see a couple of huge churches. It poured down rain on us the whole day and it was freezing. But with the four of us together that day was a ton of fun! We saw the Leaning Tower of Pisa and spent a whole day just walking around Florence and shopping. Friday morning we trained to Venice.
I’ve been told that Venice is the most romantic city in the world… I was excited to see for myself if that was true or not. I was amazed at all the glass jewelry and diamonds you could buy. The city in itself was beautiful and it was really cool that you could take a boat taxi on the water! We didn’t though, it wasn’t worth the money ![]()
Me and Mallory had wanted to get our picture taken with an Italian the whole week and this was almost our last day. Well I saw two Italian men standing there asking if anyone wanted a gondola ride. I walked up to them and asked if I could have my picture taken with them. They agreed happily and one of them asked for my boyfriend to join us in the picture. I replied with “Neither one of them are my boyfriend” and the man said, “well then, nobody will get jealous, you should stand in the middle!” He wrapped his arm around my waist and after the picture he bent down and kissed me on the head and said in my ear “I get off work at 7, you should come back”. Whoa! Needless to say, we high tailed it outta there! We continued with our day and ended the evening with playing cards back at the hostel. The next morning we had a late breakfast and parted ways at the train station. The guys went to Rome and Mallory and I trained to Milan where we would fly out the next day.
The overall trip was what I needed to keep me going here. When the going gets tough, call up a friend and head to Italy!
I wouldn’t have said that Venice was the most romantic place in the world… until, I was kissed my an Italian
(((PLEASE be patient with me as I get these pictures up…)))
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HELLO ITALY!!!
So this time tomorrow I will be on another continent! I love Africa and all, but I need to get away for a few days… (really I wouldn’t be saying this if my friends were coming here. It’s just the fact that I get to see them for eight days!!!) Can you guys tell that I’m excited?
So the lizard left, but another one came. He is now in my room and likes to hang out in between my wall and the headboard of my bed. He hasn’t bothered me in my sleep so far and as long as he stays there and doesn’t try to snuggle, I’m ok with him staying. Not to mention that the bug count in my room is down right now too.
So the story of the last couple of weeks… well, I’m not sure that I can remember a whole lot about it. My mind isn’t with me right now… it’s in Italy. But I do know that I spent 4 days in the village with my family last week and that was a ton of fun. I forced them to let me go to the well with them so that I could bring back my own bucket of water. I feel like I need to do SOMETHING out there… They were not happy and said that when the chief found out he would not be happy with me. I told them that I would deal with the chief. So three days in a row I went to gather water with the girls. There was around 25 – 30 women there each time and they just looked mockingly at me as I stood with my empty bucket, waiting for it to be filled. They spoke in Hausa and Fulfulde about me and then they would laugh… it’s almost like they think that I don’t know they are talking about me? Oh! But I’m more perceptive than they think I am… (I’m sure one of my family members will comment about what I just wrote.) When they pull water from the well, one takes the ropes and lifts, and as soon as she lifts the other one takes the rope and lifts and so on. It’s an on-going process and they work together until the water bucket is at the top. I watched a lady try to do it alone and she seemed to struggle a bit. So when the girls were almost done pulling the water from the bottom of the well one of them called me over to see if I wanted to try. With all the women watching I took the rope and helped her pull the water up. But I was stronger than she was so as I was lifting the water, *Hana (One of the chief’s daughters) was not able to keep up with my speed so she backed away. The women standing around watched in amazement as I pulled the bucket of water all the way up by myself with what looked like no struggle at all.
Now let me tell you, I kind of surprised myself with this too. How in the world was I able to go SO fast and do it alone when these grown women who have been doing this for years struggle without a teammate? There are two things that I think of when I try to reason this is my mind… 1) I had worked up my adrenaline and didn’t want to be seen as a “weakling”, or 2) that the women here have more strength in their backs than in their arms. The second is more reasonable in my mind knowing that I have a weak back and they do everything with their backs. I’m not sure. But what I do know is that after my bucket was full and I lifted it to my head and walked away, I didn’t hear another laugh or snicker from anyone…
I came back to my town and Melissa stayed a couple of nights with me. Melissa is a journeyman serving on the same team as I am (Sokoto Fulani) in another town a few hours away. She had to have some things with her truck taken care of and stayed with me while that happened. That was a blessing to say the least. She is 25 and just got back on the field from serving her first two years. She back for another three. We took evening walks and she taught me a ton about learning the language and relating to the people, etc. It was a good visit and I look forward to her next one.
So my original plan was to fly to Italy on the 11th. I called the man that works in our office in Niamey on Monday and asked him if he could call and confirm my flight for me. He called me back and told me that it had been cancelled. It had been cancelled. Cancelled? Huh? Wait… what did you say? AHHHH! CANCELLED – WHAT????!!!!!?!??!?! He said that I could fly out on the 10th or the 12th. I chose the day early so that I would be there when Mallory got there. I knew that meant that I would be there for an extra day alone, but I didn’t want to miss out on my whole day with Mallory before the guys got there on Saturday. So I asked him to get me the ticket for the 10th. All this meant that I would have leave my home the next day instead of two days from that point. So I packed things up quickly and got on the bus in my town the next day. On my way in the man from our Baptist Mission office called me and said that I couldn’t have the flight on the 10th but that I had to take the one on the 12th. Reason was that when I bought my ticket it was non-refundable and non-exchangable. When they cancelled my flight on the 11th they AUTOMATICALLY changed my flight to the 12th. So for me to leave on the 10th would mean for me to “change” my flight. Nothin’ doin’. They wouldn’t let me. I cried. I pulled my shoulder cover over my eyes as we’re driving down the road and I let the tears fall. I was going to miss my whole day with Mallory.
I called Mallory right away and told her of the problem and she assured me that it was all going to be ok… I love her! So to make a long story short, she is in Italy right now waiting for me to get there tomorrow.
Things will all turn out, no doubt and we are all going to have a wonderful time! I know this!
Please be praying for safety as we all four travel. Pray that it will be a blessed time as we all share what the Lord has been doing in our lives and countries over the last nine months.
I can’t wait to come back and show you all pictures of the trip as well as many from my town and village that I want you to see.
Love you all and thanks for your support!
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This is going to be a short post today. I just want to fill you in on what the last two weeks has been full of.
Tara, Susan and I attended a Fulani Believer’s Conference two weeks ago for a few days. The drive was about 9 – 10 hours East in Niger and it was really fun to see more desert. Haha!!! We did get to see lots more greenery in one place specific place though and I’m not really sure where it came from. I guess just out of the blue. We were able to stop at my supervisors house on the way there and back. That was cool for me because I hadn’t been there yet. They live quite a few hours from me.
The conference is held annually in a different part of Niger each year. There is normally a few hundred people there but this year we were topping off with about 100 total. White people were the minority (meaning that there were 7 of us – I think) and most of the time the Fulani men would lead the sessions. In the mornings there were Bible storying classes for everyone and then in the afternoons and evenings there were just teachings and sermons. I didn’t understand any of it, although a few times Tara was wonderful and had the time to translate for Susan and I. Susan understands more Fulfulde than I do but not enough yet to catch it all. Susan and I were both thankful for Tara and her speaking skills!
Since then I have been back to the bush and stayed a couple of nights with my family out there. They were really disappointed that I wasn’t saying for longer. I wanted to spend Easter in my home though and be with Fati and Belki all day. Easter is an interesting short story…
I woke up and wanted to be able to feel like an American in America with my family. Although I knew that I was an American in Niger alone, I didn’t care. My dad always makes breakfast every Sunday morning and I wanted a taste of home. So I made scrambled eggs and grape jelly toast. My mom always asks my dad for chocolate milk on Sunday mornings with her breakfast so I even had some of that. The meal wasn’t the same but it was wonderful. I thought about them the whole day and it was great to start Easter out that way. Then I read all four versions of the Easter story and I’m still trying to decide which one is my favorite. You guys can let me know in your comments on this blog which one you like the best. I know which one I like the least and I think that it’s Mark’s. I say that because if I can remember correctly I think that his has the smallest amount of detail in it. Why would I like his least? Hmmm…..
Right after breakfast I started feeling not so good. Belki was also sick as can be and was throwing up everywhere and had a fever. I thought that maybe I was just getting what she had. As the day continued I developed the exact same symptoms as I had when malaria hit me at the end of February. I couldn’t believe it! I called my supervisors and talked to them about it and Jennie said that it may have been a relapse instead of a whole new case. None the less, I had Susan pick up malaria treatment meds for me and started them on Monday morning. I’m feeling 100% better! Praise the Lord!
Since then I have been talking with Fati non-stop and been getting a lot of Fulfulde practice in. It’s been really good for me and I’ve enjoyed it. Sometimes I like it more to just be able to practice with Fati. Because when I’m in the bush I have about eight people at any given time trying to explain something to me. When one can’t get the message across, another one tries in a different way and sometimes it’s overwhelming for me. But with Fati, it’s just her. She also knows how I speak Fulfulde and then she tries to talk like she knows I will understand. I just love her so much!
Fati and I found the other day that we are the same age! She was really excited about that and asked me when I was going to get married… I’m not far enough along in Fulfulde to explain those details to her yet!
So last night I was walking outside to say goodnight to K, Fati and Belki and lock my door when I saw a huge lizard in my living room. He is about eight inches long and Fati came quick enough to see that he was in my house and then he disappeared and I haven’t seen him since. So as long as he doesn’t crawl into bed with me and he eats my spiders, roaches and crickets, he can stay. It would be kind of comforting to just know where he is though. He may have made it back outside by this point but I’m not so sure about that…
The next week looks like more bush time. I am also getting ready to start Fulfulde lessons with a Fulani woman that speaks Fulfulde and English! Tara introduced me to her before she left for Mali. I was supposed to have my first lesson on Monday but the malaria shot that idea down.
Prayer requests during this time:
Language learning (your prayers have been working so far!)
My health (Had you all not been praying for my health before I’m sure that I would have been sicker than I have beenJ so thank you so much!)
I headed off to vacation in Europe in a couple of weeks with three other Journeymen. Please pray for safety in all of our travels – we are SO excited about this trip!
There was a situation that came up this week concerning some cultural issues that will have to be dealt with in the very near future. Please be in prayer for my supervisors and I as we sort it out. Also pray for the other person involved, pray that this person will see the Lord in us regardless of the outcome and that the decision made will only effect our witness in a positive way.
Thank you all more than ever for your support. Love you so much and will be back to update you all soon!
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With not much to do I put myself to work with writing letters and journaling. I spent a lot of time with the Lord during those 7 days in the bush also. Those were just about the 7 longest days of my life…
12:31 pm Friday, February 8, 2008
“God, I ask You right now for a new level of love for these people and this place. Make my heart more content than it already is…”
12:42 pm Wednesday, February 13, 2008
“I’m sitting here with two of the chief’s daughter’s, under a huge tree in their compound…
Tears were ready to overflow my eyes as Seng and Tara and Susan got ready to leave this morning. Alone. I knew that I was going to be alone in this village where these people don’t know me yet. Nor do I know them.
I asked the girls to pray me this week and Seng asked if she could pray for me right then. She took my hand and her and Tara stood while Seng voiced a prayer to the Father on my behalf. Then as they were getting ready to go the chief walked over to our circle and took the hand of his second oldest daughter. He walked her around the circle and placed her hand on my arm. He told her in Fulfulde to watch over and protect me while he was gone. Whatever I needed for her to give it to me and told her to help me with all I needed. Tara had translated what he said and all got a good laugh out of the chief and his words. But the truth is – that showed me how much he and his family love me.
9:41 pm
As I stood and held the bowl of warm milk in my hands I no longer had tears ready to overflow. It had a creamy taste to it and I wondered if it was the fresh milk from last night or maybe even this morning. I had to have it over the fire for a while until it was almost at a boil. I’ve never done milk like that before, Seng taught me last night.
I’m here. I’m in my new home in the bush with my new Fulani family. I love it. I think. This morning I had such mixed emotions about watching the girls leave and here I was – on my own. There is NO way to describe the feeling I had, of complete reliance, trust and faith in Christ.
The chief left with the girls and he’s the one in the family that I know the best, I can’t communicate any better with him than anyone else, but he has a way of really helping me understand what he’s trying to tell me.
11:26 am Thursday, February 14, 2008
I wonder why I was called to this life. I feel at times that it’s not fair that I was the one in my family given a desire for something so unfamiliar and almost uncomfortable at times.
Every bit of everything in me wants to be with my family right now, except for the huge part of my heart that loves these people. I feel torn between two of the most magnificent loves in my life… my family and the lost.
9:47 pm
Once it got dark I grabbed a mat to sit on, my headlamp and my Bible and sat down to read. The chief’s wife came and sat with me as I read a few chapters from Hosea aloud. She just sat there and listened, not understanding a single word. I don’t care, I know that there is power in the Word of God and I pray that the reading of Scripture will scare Satan far away from this place. I want to be able to reach beyond the chief’s compound walls, into the depths of this village with the Gospel. God, I ask you for courage and strength.”
Living in the bush that week forced me to be more dependent on the Lord than I ever have before. The Lord has been teaching me during my whole Journeyman term how to be reliant on Him alone. While I was in Nigeria I was forced many times to fall back on Him with nowhere else to go. But this is a much deeper level of dependency than I have never experienced. In Nigeria, when I would really need to talk to someone, I went to my supervisors and they listened and talked me through it and then encouraged me to pray about it. Now I go to the Lord and He listens and asks me to talk to Him some more about it. In Nigeria when I needed to pick up the phone and call my mom I did so. Now, I have to call on the Lord. In Nigeria when I needed a good cry, Katy was normally not far away for me to go and talk to and cry with. Now, Jesus is the one who hears my cries and wipes my tears. My life changed 100% when I moved from America to Nigeria and my life changed 100% when I moved from Nigeria to Niger.
Bush life is easy. I can sleep with spiders and crickets on the walls next to me. I can go to the bathroom behind a bush everyday. I can drink warm milk every morning and night given to me by the chief’s family even though I don’t really like it. I can take bucket baths and only feel half clean afterwards. I can drink brown filtered water that taste worse than ever. I can eat the occasional food that is questionable, knowing that later, I will be visiting the bushes a few more times than normal. I can go without electricity and running water and I can wear my clothes for three days in a row, wash them and put them back on for another three days. Bush life truly is easy for me. The difficult part of this life for me right now is my inability to communicate. It’s the hardest and most discouraging thing that I have ever dealt with. Even with bush life being easy for me, it’s different and it’s new. So take that and add the major communication factor in and you get how I felt. I was alone. I felt alone. The only English speaker out there was God and let me tell you – we had some good talks!
Tara came out on Saturday and took me to her village about an hour walk through the desert. She kind of got turned around and lost her way a bit. It had been a few months since she had been to her village due to work that had to be done at our home it town. So we walked here and there and she took me far and near and finally found the right path and we went for it. She introduced me to her village and showed me the hut that she lived in. It had her hand made bed/mattress in it and a water jug that put water from the well it and it had room for her trunk of belongings. She lived there a little over a year.
We went to visit her crippled friend who lives just a few huts from where Tara’s is. She sells small items to the village people like matches, cigarettes, incense, etc. She is also the village braider. She braids many of the woman’s hair in the village. I watched her walk on her hands (with flipflops) and knees out to the sand, situate herself on the mat and start braiding the girls hair who had come that day with probably 50 cfa (about 8 cents).
There were lots of people that came and went, children, men and women, some to say hi and others to just get a look at the white girls that were there. While we were at her house we were served wet leaves with a spice in them to make it a little more “tasty”. They were gross. I can’t explain it, but it was leaves with some sort of, with some sort of, of, I don’t know – but it wasn’t good. But I tried it and that’s all that matters to them.
We visited others in her village and made our way back to the chief’s home later that afternoon. When we got there all the children were really excited to see us and immediately told us that they knew we got lost… Tara was shocked! She asked they knew and they children said that a Hausa person had come by and told them that their white people were lost in the desert! That was almost scary to Tara and I to know that people know who we are and who we live with! It was crazy to say the least. The children were laughing about it and thought it was really funny, they said they thought maybe Tara just wanted to “show me the bush a little bit” but that they knew she was really lost.
Tara stayed the night with me on Saturday night and headed home on Sunday morning as planned. She had made the trip out just to introduce me to her village, it was a blessed day and I wouldn’t have chosen anyone else to lost in the desert with;)
3:09 pm Sunday, February 17, 2008
“Tara and I talked about the language and how difficult it is for me to have to wait to talk to them as I learn. One thing I do know is that these past few days have been sweet times with the Lord. I have learned, yet again, what my family truly means to me. I have seen a new level of trust from me towards the Lord. I also know from this week that I have to trust – I have to BELIEVE that the Lord will give me this language and I’m not sure I’m totally convinced of that yet. Will I be convinced when I can actually speak Fulfulde or will the Lord hold it from me until I believe? ‘God I want to BELIEVE, take away my unbelief!’ “
Seng came on Monday afternoon and stayed the night with me. It was my seventh day/night in the bush and I was having mixed feelings about leaving. I didn’t feel like I could speak the language any better or communicate on any new magical level, but I did know that I had begun to build relationships with these people and I knew that they loved me. Every last one of them.
Tara came early on Tuesday morning to pick the two of us up along with the chief. My first week in the bush was complete. I was thinking it all over and running the week through my mind and just sitting with the Lord about it when He just confirmed that my first week in the bush was for Him and I more than anything or anyone else. He wanted me to learn how to place myself wholeheartedly before Him. When I found myself falling to let myself fall and trust that He was there to catch me…
I know that I’m here to minister to these people, they are my people and I love them. But more and more everyday, the Lord is showing me that He brought me to Bush Village, Niger for Him and I. To continue what has been a beautiful relationship thus far, and to allow others a glimpse of what Christ looks like. I want to be transparent.
This is my “boy” Ibrahim (Abraham) and I love him SO much! He’s the oldest daughters son.

This is me trying to be Fulani

So I was helping them catch their goats so they could tie them up for the night. I caught the last one and they didn’t have the rope ready. So I just had to stand there and hold it – the chief thought it was so wonderful that I would catch a goat! He told Seng to take my picture!

This is “my bedroom” and I’m taking this picture while sitting on my cot.

This is my water as it’s being filtered. And yes, it’s the same color after it’s filtered as it is before…

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I realize that this blog was not a whole lot about bush “life” but this is what the Lord led me to share with you all tonight. With my access to the internet being scarce, I’m going to try to blog everytime I get on. Meaning that I will write it during the week or over the weekend and then when I make it to Susan’s to do my online things, I will post it. Please pray that I will be diligent in keeping up with it. It’s the least that I can do for those that are so faithful in keeping me lifted so high.
I am just now getting over a not – so – fun case of malaria. It all started last Friday and I thought that it was just a bad cold… yea right, a cold that makes you feel like death?! I just kept thinking that I would get better… tomorrow. I was not able to sleep at night because of the pain being so intense. Tara, Seng, Toby and Bradley, (two Journeymen who’s terms are also over), Judy (she is all four of their supervisor) and I, headed to Niamey on Tuesday. By the time we got here six hours later I knew that something wasn’t right. I was in severe pain in the back of my head, my neck, shoulders and lower back and was having consistent hot/cold flashes. That’s when Tara said “Clinic here we come!” The doctor gave me some pain medicine (because NOTHING I had taken thus far had touched the pain. Not Advil, Tylenol, nothing.) That night I slept for 10 hours! It was amazing and I didn’t feel better the next day, but I did feel rested. The next morning I went back to have a blood test done for malaria and it came back positive. I started on the malaria treatment that night and by the next morning (yesterday) I was already feeling a little bit better. Today I finished the treatment and I’m feeling really good. The medicine is like fast working magic! I love it! I’m headed back to my home in the morning. On a bus… just like the one before… I already called the taxi man and he’s coming at 4:30am to pick me up. It’s already 1:15am and I’m just now getting this posted and packed up. This bus ride is going to be AMAZING! (***sarcasm***) I’m going to try and take it easy until about the start of next week and then I’m headed back out to the bush.
I will try to update you all again about in about 7 – 10 days. Thank you ALL for your prayers during this week when I was sick. Continue to pray for me as I regain all my strength and get back to work in the bush on my language study.
Can’t wait to fill you in on what this next week will bring!
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